Bollocks
Filed Under (Uncategorized) by on 30-05-2007
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I hate hope - it makes you want all manner of things, makes you create things that aren’t there, makes you ignore gut feelings and doubts, until finally, inevitably, you get the answer you knew all along. BOLLOCKS.
*breathes*
The other night? I cut. It’s been the first time in months (and before then, it had been YEARS). It shows that, whatever else i may believe, i’m lower than i’ve been for a long time. Self confidence is non-existent and i am needy, dependent, and all the other things i despise about myself.
As an insecure person with a rejection complex and abandonment issues, the most painful way to get to me is to ignore me. To ‘time me out’. It’s happened before; people seem to *know* this about me without me having to say it. But i react so perfectly; i am so relieved when they *do* get back in touch that [...]
